today i was in an alone in an elevator and i became aroused by the thought of a forbidden romp in it. this month in particular i feel extra oversexed. i watched unfaithful, it was much much longer then i remembered. currently im watching saved. i think i might be failing my philo class and i really cant afford it. im starting to feel the fear that overpowered me at the end of high school, but i will apply for uc's whether i get in or not, i have to apply, i have to know if they think im right for them. argh, that shouldnt be the reason why i want to get it but it is right now or atleast the surface. i really want to get into berkeley, sc is my fall back and i dont even know if i'll get accepted there.